How Come....

"How come we don't even talk no more And you don't even call no more We don't barely keep in touch at all And I don't even feel the same love when we hug no more And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now After all the years we been down Aint no way no how, this bullshit can't be true We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you"
This is currently how I am feeling. I'm in the last semester of my senior year, and it troubles me that the friends that I had my freshmen year, close friends of mine, are either not my friends anymore or we aren't as close.And people tell me all the time that friends grow apart, and that as you grow older, you don't lose friends you just learn who the real ones are....and even though I know this to be true...sometimes it just hurts my heart. I have a hard outer interior, but once I let you in, I let you in. And I don't let alot of people in, esp females, so if I do, it saddens me when I grow apart from someone, or we stop being friends for whatever reason. See I have this habit of being my all into these "friendships"...and though I've already found it to be a fact, I could never really get with giving my loyalty and friendship and my being whole heartdly and not getting that shit back.It just saddens me. I learn not to live with regrets and that everything happens for a reason.....but sometimes, times like this, when I'm alone in my room, in the wee hours of the morning, I wonder how come? Was it me? Was [EYE] not a good friend? Did I change with the seasons? And I have come to realize, that no, it's not me. I don't hold grudges, I retain memories.Good memories, and I want it back....but a friendship, just like any other relationship, is a two way street.
"I changed huh? You got a phone, pick it up, call me ..."
So does this mean that we werent real friends to begin with?

Haiti....

I really don't know what to say about the earthquake in Haiti. When I first heard the news, on the radio, I was like, OK, it's not that bad. But than there was details given, so much destroyed, so many missing, and the images are heartbreaking and devastating. I can not even BEGIN to IMAGINE how they are feeling over there. My heart hurts every time I see an image or hear in great numbers so many people missing.
This is def a time when people need to come together and do all that they can. This is an unbelievable disaster. And sometimes it makes you wonder why would God allow such a thing to happen. However, now isn't the time to question God, now is the time to look to and for Him.
Somehow my problems that I thought I was having, with Howard, with my family, with Jonathan, with law school, with anything, appears to be so insignificant compared to what they are experiencing in Haiti, broken bodies, losing family members, no food, no running water, nowhere to live....and to tell the truth, it really is.
I am watching Hope for Haiti benefit concert and tears keep springing to my eyes. This is def a sad and trying time. Even if people don't donate, prayer is free, and I pray for them every night. Haiti won't be fine overnight, but the process of healing has to start now, one prayer at a time.

Weep for Haiti, help Haiti, pray for Haiti.

"My Business"

"Yeah I may like you for a minute, but that dont mean I like your friends all up in my business!"
Ugh! So true!
I hate when people, esp people I dont like nor know, try to be all up in my business and what not! That irks the hell out of me!
I just had to remove and block about 25 people on facebook because they were all suspect of being in my business. These nosey ass people were taking simple ish that I put on facebook and going back and telling Jonathan. I mean, one time I wrote on HIS wall that he snores in his sleep and three people texted him about it! Like wtf? Seriously.
So I had to drop them!
If you arent part of the solution, than you are part of the problem. They were not helping toward the greater good of our relationship, as a result, they were part of the problem. As a result, I had to remove them from my life.
That is all.
Back to my reguarly scheduled life.
Look forward to a post soon.
And for those who read this, please....
esp with my relationship,
esp the parts that I dont indulge to you myself personally.
Thanks :)

Ask Me!

Sooooo the new thing right now, is this sorta honesyt box...but its not like facebook, twitter, or myspace. Thank God because I only have a facebook! LBS....Anywhooo...it lets you ask totally anonymous questions and it give the person the option to answer it or not. I am currently answering all questions that come thru my box. I feel like I don't have anything to hide, I'm pretty up front. So far Ive been getting general, random questions, but I know the more people find out about it, the crazier the questions might get. And I'm ready! LBS....
So go ahead and ask away! I know there is something that you want to know about me...go ahead and ask away my darling!!!!
Here's the link...copy and paste it to go to the website. And remember it doesn't tell me who you are!
http://www.formspring.me/mzpippi
Indulge yourself in my life!
:)

Betrayal....At Its Finest???

"Yo rude boi, why you cross me, like a little t?"
Betrayal.
Such an ugly word. And no one wants to be on the wrong end of it. No one should really want to be on either side of it. But the question I am posing today is...."is some betrayal more worst than others?"
And my answer is yes. But remember, this is just my opinion.
I feel that some things, some forms of betrayal, a person can forgive, and continue on with that relationship, rather it be a friendship, romatic relationship, co-workers, etc etc. However, there are some things, that can be forgive {in due time} but the betrayal was so great, that the relationship is totally damaged and can not be repaired and it is best for all parties to go separate ways.
Betrayal comes in many stages, but it also depends on the individual and what betrayal is to them. What I may feel like is a small form of betrayal may be a bigger deal to some one else.
The bottom line, is that no one likes to feel the sting of betrayal. No one like to feel like someone balantly disregarded the relationship and the trust of the relationship. It is not a good feeling.
I can possibly get over if a female friend of my mine, talked to an ex boyfriend of mine. It would bother me for a while, but depending on the relationship I have with that girl and the relationship I had with my ex, in {due time} I would be able to forgive and still be that girl's friend. If one of my closest friends sleeps with like my husband to be ((which I hope and pray will never happen, but I trust Jonathan and Pavielle lol))that is really unforgiveable and I would not be able to be with him nor be her friend again. But that's just me. I've seen this happen and all parties were able to move past it. Not me.
Betrayal isn't good. So just try to avoid it at all cost. The best way to avoid it, ask yourself, "what if he/she was doing this to me? How would I feel or react?" And it you cant answer, or you get a negative answer....just stay away.

Betrayal is never good, for anyone. Heed my warning and stay away before you be crying and your nose is all stuffy!

Whole New Decade

Sooooo, it's 2010! I could not wait for this year to get here in 2006. LOL....I graudated from high school in 2006, and now Im graduating from college in five months!
I said last year when 2009 first came in, I told everyone else that they could have 2009 because 2010 would be my year! I already claimed it! Yes, it's mine!. Alot of great things are going to fall into place for in this great year.
Along with my success and accomplishments, will be challenges and hard times, and because I know this already, I am ready for whatever is going to come my way. I have God on my side, so I know there is no way I can lose!
None the less, 2010 brings the start of a new year, a new decade and new learning experiences.
I won't say that I will change, because I progess, mature and develop every day, not just when a new year comes along. So I will continue to do as such.
Can't wait to see all the great things of 2010!