Do You Know What Today Is?!?! 0_o

Today, May 13, 2010 marks the one year anniversary for Jonathan and I.

I know one year doesn't seem like alot, but believe me, it was a long time coming. Don't get me wrong, I love Jonathan with all of my heart, that's my lil spoiled baby but it was hard work yall! lol...First off, we weren't like most couples our first year together because our first year was long distance. We spent 9 months of the year away from each other for our first year together. I am so very glad and blessed that we were strong enough to do such a thing. Some couples are together for years but cant be away from each other for that long without breaking up and going their separate ways and Jonathan and I did it our first year.
What Jonathan and I have is something very special and unique. Alot of people look at what we have and often wish they had it. What they don't know is that this takes hard work, we just make it LOOK easy! lol...
We learn and grow with each other every day. We pray and look to God for guidance and we seek wisdom from our elders and people who have been in our position before. I can honestly say that I have grown, developed, matured, and learned much more in this one relationship this year than all of my past relationships together. Jonathan and I push each other to our limit and than push even more.
We force each other out of our comfort zone, because we both know that we cannot live a life in fear. God said fear nothing and so we try our best not to.
One year ago told my life changed for the better and I have been grateful every since. Jonathan is my blessing that just continues to give and give and give and I love him so very much for that. We have one year down, but the rest of our life together to go. Times may get rough but I am not worried at all.
He is more than my lover, he is also my support system, biggest fan and my best friend. And at the end of the day, we both know that nobody loves him more than me and nobody loves me more than him, and no one ever will.
Do you know what today is?
Its me and my GB one year anniversary!!!!

Finally Done!!!

I know I havent wrote in a while, but the stress and heavy load of senior year was a bit much. The grind for me just took a break, not stopped completely, just a break, today! Lol!
It is May 10, 2010. I graduated from the prestigious Howard University on Friday May 7, 2010. Words cannot even begin to express the way my heart felt when my name was called and I walked across that stage. That was one of THE proudest moments of my life. I looked to my right and I saw all my previous teachers and mentors. I looked to my left and I saw some of my close friends who I know I will always remain in contact with, visit, and will invite to other important events in my life such as my wedding, my first baby shower, 30th birthday, etc etc. Most importantly, I looked in front of me and saw my biggest fans/supporters/believers, my family. I saw my aunts screaming my name and snapping pictures, my parents and grandparents with that proud look on my face that said, "my baby did it". I saw my siblings clapping and my cousins standing and yelling for me. And last but not least I saw the love and pride in Jonathan's eyes. I saw all of these things in a matter of ten seconds.
And although I didn't go to the big, end of the year annual graduation party at club Love later that night, and I woke up too late the next morning and missed the university's graduation, seeing that image from the stage on that Friday night meant more to me that weekend than anything that took place and that could ever take place at Howard University. That dwelling was surreal and bittersweet and I will forever have that etched in my memory. Now that I have graduated, it's time for the real world. And I carry some fear but not a lot because with my family, close friends, Jonathan and God by my side, I KNOW that I will be just fine!
Mama I made it!!!!!!

Water Bill Too High???

My pastor once said, "the grass isn't green on the other side, its green where you water it"...and nothing has ever made more sense to me in my life. It means focus on working on your own ish, your own grass instead of focusing on what someone else has....
Let me break down for yall....
You know how people always think that things are better on the other side of the fence? For example, you may look at one couple and feel like they are perfect, they never fight, they live together, you never hear about any arguments they have, he treats her like an angel supposedly, and you want that....you wonder well what would it be like to be over there on the other side of the fence in that perfect relationship? What you fail to realize, is that their grass may look green but you don't know how much their water bill is! Yeah, their relationship may look perfect to you, but you don't know at what costs that it takes for them to appear that way. They could have put years into working things out in their relationship. Maybe that man was a cheating, lying, abusive bastard and that woman left him for several years, and when they got back together when he got his stuff together and knew how to treat her like a real woman. Would you be willingly to go through her struggle of paying that high ass "water bill" to get her perfectly green grass that she seems to have now?
And this could be said about anything. Say you envy that beautiful girl on campus, she has the perfect body and she is flawless and always on point, but what if she puts in mad hours at the gym to get that perfect body and she has perfected the art of hair and make up after several years...are you willingly to take the time to learn that skill?
What I'm trying to say, is that you cant want what other people have unless you are willingly to do what they did to get where they at/what they have. Everything comes at a price, and some people are willingly to pay a higher prices than others, perhaps yourself will.
So the next time you envy what someone else has and you think that their grass is greener on the side, remember to keep in mind their water bill to pay for that green grass. And maybe, if you are willingly to pay, the grass on the other side wont be greener, it will be green where you water your own grass. If you put work into your own grass and not focus on envying someone else, your grass will be greener....remember, "the grass isn't green on the other side, it's green where you water it"....

Too Cute!!!

I dont usually post stuff about celebs, like gossip and all that other ish...but this was waayyyy too cute to pass up! So just watch the video and enjoy because I did.

Oh To Be A Kid Again

I know I have been quite on a hiatus lol...but I have been busy!!! This is the home stretch, only 6 weeks left to graduation and it is grind time baby! Anywhooo, more about that later....

So for my Poetry class I had to write a 30 page anthology. Yeah, I said 30! Yeah, that's alot right! lol....But it wasn't that bad, just very tedious because of the small bs that the teacher required us to do. We had to pick a theme and collect poems that catered to that theme. We had to get the paper bounded and everything, couldn't turn it in stapled. Gotta love this class right ((I'm def being sarcastic))
But anywhoo, the theme I picked was to be a kid again. I picked this theme because too often do we rush to be adults. We want that sense of independence and not having to listen to anyone because "you are grown". But with gaining this independence, you lose your innocence and a freedom from real responbilites. You gain having the options of making your own decisions, but you lose having the option to blame your parents or anyone else for the consequences of your decisions if you don't like the outcome.
You gain being able to have your own things, cell phone, house, etc etc, and you do as you please. But you lose having your parents for those things. I never realized how much toothpaste and tissue actually cost before living on my own and paying my own bills. We take things like that for granted all the time.
And children these days are in a rush to grow up even faster than I was a pre-teen and teenager. They rush to become adults by doing things like having sex, having boyfriends, smoking weed, doing other drugs, and drinking. What's the rush? All of that will be waiting for you when you get older, once you finally get there.
No one ever takes the time and just enjoy their child hood anymore. And it is very sad. I hear stories everyday about how children as young as 11 and 12 are having sex, with older guys of course, and children as young as 14 getting pregnant or having children! They are still merely children themselves and now they have someone else to be responsible for!
Some things you deal with as a child because that's your world. You deal with things such as petty fights with your best friend, who sits next to who on the bus, who is going to be on the end in a game of rope. Save the adult problems like sex, pregnancy, drugs, fist fights, and family issues for the time that is meant for them to be dealt with.
And what's funny is that the same people who rush to grow up and make their own rules, once they reach adulthood and deal with the consequences of their actions and rules, they want to be children again and deal with those carefree problems that went away by the time you woke up for school the next day.
Some things once gone, you can never get back, ever! And your childhood is one of them! So please cherish it while you can!


Over spring break I went home and just spent time with my family. No, I really did spend time with my family. Yeah I was with Jonathan alot, that is expected, but I sat and talked with my younger sisters, helped my younger brother Cristian with his homework, took him to my younger cousin Taylor's birthday party and stayed with him the whole time, I spend time with my god-daughter Zaria, and I talked with my other younger brother James before he went back down south for college ((Alcorn State University in Mississippi)). And I can honestly say between the petty arguments and shout fests, I enjoyed my time home. Me and my chocolate drop ((18 year old sister)) even starting teaching my younger sister Kenae how to turn and jump double dutch ((who's 10)). And that's what she should be doing at 10 & 11, learning how to jump rope, not sex or rolling a blunt! But we had fun and me and my chocolate even took some turns ourselves. The pictures are below. Enjoy!
ps-Cherish your childhood while you still can.

Black History Month

"I have a scar on my back I got when I was a slave...You have people out there with this scar on their brains..."

I waited until the last day of February to write about Black History month because I really wanted to see if the entire month would go by without anyone saying anything about our race's entire month, and it sadly, it did. I am so disappointed with our generation current state. They are so lazy and will settle for anything, even if it means compromising a piece of themselves for that. Throughout this entire month, I saw very little people even mention anything at all about Black History month. It was a trending topic on twitter for about a day and that was it. Did people forget that this is our heritage month? Did they forget all that we went through to get where we are? Why forget what our ancestors went through? Their pain, their struggle, their sacrifice, their embarrassment and humiliation? But most important, their achievements? Without our forefathers doing what they have done before our time, NO ONE would be in the state that they are in now! So why hasn't there by a celebration of some sort? A festival? A poetry speaking even?
My generation and the generation after me, sad to say, is just too damn complacent where we are. They figured because we have come this far, we have a black president, that we have arrived and that we can simply disregard everything that took place before our time, even though that is exactly what got us where we are today. THAT WOULD BE THE DUMBEST SHIT IVE HEARD IN A LONG ASS TIME!
You never should feel like we've come far enough, that we have done enough. Yes we have come a long way, but we still, in fact, have a long way to go! It saddens my heart when our youth, our Black community, lets the entire month of February just slip on by them without giving thanks of knowledge to all those before us. It saddens me. Sometimes I feel hopeful for our race but other times, times like this, when I see that we still have alot of work to do and no one is willingly to give a helping hand....I lose a little bit of faith in my heart. Where are our leaders of tv of this generation? Lil Wayne, Drake, Gucci, J. Cole, they are cool, they are nice artists....but leaders of the African American race, they are NOT.
As an entire race, we HAVE to do better. No, we MUST do better. If we disregard a month that is dedicated to us and we are African American, how do you feel the white counter parts will feel? Yes we took a giant step forward by having a (half) black president in office, but we also have taken ten small steps back by simply not celebrating our history, knowing our history, and acknowledging this month for what it is.
I am sadly disappointed.
Black people, four words: WE MUST DO BETTER.
If we want a better future for our youth, we have to make those changes and make it happen. We already know from our history that NOTHING is given to us! We have to demand it and fight for it. Why would things be any different now?

Leadership For America & The Global Community

Our Howard University Student Association (SGA) President, Bryan Smart , introducing President Barack Obama as he signs an executive order to strengthen the capacity of and increase access to Federal funding for the Nations Historically Black Colleges and Universities. February 26, 2010.

Some people think that HBCUs arent as creditable in education as our white counter parts. People feel like we aren't diverse enough. How can you go out and be diverse in other cultures, when you aren't aware of the diversity in your very own culture first? I have met and mingled with people in all forms of the Black race...Haitians, Africans in many forms, etc etc. Once I had a talk with an aunt of mine, who expressed that she feels like people just don't appreciate HBCU's anymore, they feel like there is no need for them. HBCU's were birthed because African Americans were denied education at White institutions. Once we were allowed to indulge in education with our white counter parts, HBCU's were still around to give African Americans a vital education about their history, along with the same education that white Americans were receiving all while being comfortable around other African Americans who wanted the same things that individual did....success, respect, and a good quality education.

Now that African Americans can get all of this, (expect for a vital and through education of our very own history) at White institutions today, people feel that there is no need for HBCUs. I am so glad that President Obama disagrees with these people! Last Friday, HBCU leader and student body president, Bryan Smart was given an opportunity to introduce President Obama as he signed the HBCU Initiative making more money and support from the federal government!

And I am so proud that I go to Howard University! I am so proud of my fellow student body, and president of Howard University Student Association (HUSA) Bryan. He is a great and intelligent individual with plans for progress for the black community. I am proud to have known, networked, and had a friend in Bryan. People like him and President Obama breathes a new hope of progress into the African American community.

Thank God Bryan Smart and President Obama doesn't feel the same way that modern people do about HBCUs. Howard University equals the Black Harvard. And although Howard has it problems, every school/college does, I am proud to say that I went here and will be an alumni of this great university.

Thank you Bryan and Barack for believing in HBCUs and keeping the hope and faith alive. Thank you!

Howard University, always at the... forefront of excellence. "Leadership for America and the Global Community!"