I'm A Dreamer

I truly want the African American race to do better....
All the way across the board, on all playing fields.
But there will always be those who love to dwell in ignorance and make drama their life line.
I just want bigger, brighter, better futures
For all those little black boys and girls.
I wish for unity with my people like during the Civil Rights Movement.
But do things really have to be that bad before we come together as a people?
I want the black family back.
The proud working father and husband.
The equally hard working and supportive mother and wife.
I want it to take a village to raise the children again.
Wishful thinking from a dreamer striving to change the world.

Simply Put

There are two things I'm truly terrified of happening to me
1) getting stuck in an elevator without any form of communication
2)getting attacked by a stray cat
I only watch four shows faithfully,
1) Law & Order SVU
2) The Good Wife
3) Suits
4) The Game
I want four children.
I love even numbers. Loathe odd numbers.
When I become a lawyer I want to help those who made mistakes when they were younger but now want to do better with their life.
I have an IPod, Jackson. And my IPad, Lindsey. My IPhone, Xavier is due to arrive in November. My Mac book, Lexingon will be here in February.
Family, my siblings esp, mean everything to me.
I work hard every day on my relationship with God.
I love Jonathan more than one could fathom.
I want need to grow old with Jonathan.
And that is all.

Switch The Style Up!

I have had my hair in damn near every style possible except for locs (but I was aiming for that also)...I have naturally long hair, sandy brown....I went natural for almost a year, cut it off and now I have glued some hair back into my head! LOL...

None the less, below are pictures of all my hair styles....
Im open to suggestions for anything in the future!

This is me with my own hair, it was pincurled

My regular hair with curls

When I cut my hair into a bob

My bangs with a knot ball ponytail

Rods! When I was on #TeamNatural

My regular hair in a wrap!

A twist out! Basically I had braids and I took them down... #TeamNatural

Two strand twist #TeamNatural

Wavy weave

Weave ponytail

Micro braids


















Sew in

Invisible part

than I cut it all off! From 15 inches to 3!

Annddd than I glued some tracks back in! lol....So now Im back at 16 inches!

My life is a journey and so are my hair styles, so I just try it and enjoy the ride!

Oh, Idk if yall noticed or not, but I really REALLY like taking pics!

Im not conceited or anything, I just really love the way I look and I love my face!

Heavy On My Mind

This song has been heavy on my mind lately.
It just speaks to my soul
And tell the secrets that I hoard on my heart
That no one knows about
Its the IV that is keeping my heart pumping
So I can make it through these rocky days
That are as stable as a ship during a storm at sea

"Some say I'll be better without you
But they don't know you like I do
Or at least the sides I thought I knew"




"When we spoke yesterday,
You said to hold my breath... to sit and wait
I'll be home so soon, I won't be late'"

lately Ive been an emotional wreck.
I wont apologize for my feelings.

Hurt Ending

The ending hurt
Even though the beginning was never supposed to start
Mixed feelings
Stay
Go
Leave
Come back
Love
hate
weakness
bi-polar,
I diagnosed myself
I cant take it
And than I can
So strong in other areas
But this is my weakness
How can one be so weak
Over something that was never supposed to happen
In the first place?
Its wrong
But right
is what I feel
If all good things come to an end
Does that mean that bad things last forever?
I want you to stay
But I know you gotta go
This was never supposed to happen
Even though the beginning was never supposed to start
It still hurts in the end

Jumbled Thoughts

I often get these random thoughts in my head
and it clutters my mind
And I cant think straight
And things get all twisted up like a ball of rubber bands.
I dont know how to get rid of these thoughts
Or sort them
Like how preschool teachers do with cubby holes for the kids
And so
I just sit
With these jumbled thoughts in my head
Late at night
Hoping that God will make them still
So I can be at peace again

Guess Who Bizzack?!

Haha! I haven't been on here in mooonntthhsss honey child! My last post was in March! Its September! Jeez! But Ive been really busy! But I will try to do better from here on out *crosses fingers*
I can honestly say Im at a happy place in my life
((Yay me))
Im making progress. Im still standing on my own. I still have GB. I still have great friends. And I still serve an AWESOME God!
I have to admit, this past summer was rather....eeeee....eventful. I learned alot along the way, I will say that. And of course, there was growth, and Im proud of that.
Things are starting to LOOK like they will be slowing down for me in the near future ((we'll see how that goes))...
But I will TRY and do better and write more!
I have a client here now, so I have to cut this short right here
Chao!