"Yea...I remember me and, me and D used to talk about this stuff all the time, like what its gon be like when you get close to your dreams. I aint know much then, but i could probly tell you a lil somethin now"
We are in now in the month of Feb, and I graduate in May. I have less than three months here at HU...we dont count the month of May and we have alot of days out of school this sem and we have spring break...which is how there is less than three months left.
And I have been ranting and raving about how Im so ready to graduate, and leave Howard and get home to Jonathan, that I forgot about what I would be leaving behind! Which is my friends here at HU. I have a lot of people that I hang with and chill with, all from different states, and it dawned on me today ((dont know why it took so long really lol))...that after this year, I may very well never see these awesome people again in my life! Sure I will see some if I come back to HU for homecomings and to visit and whatnot, and some I will even invite to like my wedding and stuff...but the majority of these people that I share classrooms with, I wont see again. And this does saddens me a bit.
I like being able to access these people and call them up and they meet me on campus or we have a nice convo in a class. I will truly miss these things. And this year I am and have gotten close to some amazing people so far and I dont want to leave them! I swear these past four years have really passed me by! I was so focused on moving forward that I forgot to enjoy the present and the precious moments that I have now.
I have had some good times here at Howard and some bad times, and also some good memories and I will miss it all. Now I see how those seniors felt when they werent quite ready to leave and face the real world. I wish I could take HU and all of my friends and people whose company I enjoy back with me to Chicago, but I cant. Besides, where would all those people stay? Not with me and Jonathan! He would have a fit! LOL
I sure will miss my times at Howard and esp the people I shared those times with. I will be at every reunion and try to make as many trips back to DC and to other places to visit people as much as my schedule ((and Jonathan)) will allow me. Time dont go back, it goes forward, cant run from the pain go towards it. I wish I would have slowed down these past years and really enjoy HU and got all that I should have gotten from it...but I cant dwell on the past. Can only enjoy the time that I have here now, and I plan on doing so from here on out.
Although May 8, 2010 is rapidly approaching and I am getting closer to my dreams, this is a bittersweet feeling for me.
"Bittersweet, you're going to be the death of me, I dont want you, but I need you, I love you and hate you at the very same time"...and this is def how I feel about my relationship with Howard!
by the way it didnt have aynyhting to do with jeremy he was coming with me, we both wanted to go to your party, he was actually disappointed we didnt go. But u were talkin to me crazy and told me not to come so i didnt and thats when i told you not to text me anymore. Im not about to just take being disrespected, period. u can think whatever u want
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