Part Of the List....

"Our quiet time....your beautiful mind....They're a part of the list, of things that I miss.Things like your funny little laugh,the way you smile or the way we kiss.What I noticed is this:I come up with something new, every single time that I sit and reminisce..."

TRUE LIFE: I AM IN A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP....and sometimes it gets hard, so very hard. I be feeling like Ne-Yo in the song above, I will just sit for a period of time and just think and reminisce of all the good and bad times that we've been through. And I remember and yearn for his kiss, touch, his smile, the sparkle in this eyes when he look at me, his laugh...HIS EVERYTHING! I just miss him sooo much.

The only thing that keeps me going strong is that I KNOW in the end that Jonathan will be worth EVERY second of this slow form of toture that I feel like Im enduring at this time. I count down all the time when I will be able to get to see him again, talk to him again, feel his touch again, and of course, there's a count day to graduation ((8 months to go))!

This long distance is very difficult but I also feel like it is helping us grow and bond on a level that most couples dont experience. We have a very strong physical bond ((lol)) but this distance is making our communication and spiritual bond stronger. We pray together and ask God for guiadance and strength in our relationship because we cant do this without His help and that all things are only able through Him. Of course our communication gets stronger and deeper because that is all we have right now. All we can do is talk and text because are not able to see each other.

And of course we have problems like every other regular couple, but we talk about it with each other and than we come to a conclusion together. We feel like sometimes that this a test but we are overly confident that we will pass each and every thing that comes our way. We may struggle with it at first, I cant lie, we do struggle, but we struggle together. And that's why I feel like our bond is strong, because we are both from humble beginnings and we are struggling together to build this rock solid foundation. I feel that this next 8 months will bring alot of things our way but at the end, on May 8th when I walk across that stage and receive my degree from Howard University, he will be there and on the 10th we will be getting on a plane together and going back to Chicago together, hand in hand. But until than, all I can is reminisice.....

"I dreamed you now every night in my mind is where we meet and when I'm awake staring at pictures of you asleep.Touching your face,invading you space....They're a part of the list of things that I miss. Things like your funny little laugh, the way you smile or the way we kiss. What I noticed is this:I come up with something new, every single time that I sit and reminisce...."